A Week Before Graduation Dilemmas

“College is The Best Years of Our Life”

The phrase I assumed was true, but I rephrased that a week before graduation. The time of years when I thought of freedom in making decision and curfew are no longer apply (though still apply to me without exception). College was greater than that, the responsibility requires one to be an adult. It's the start of new laughter, hatred, disappointment and heartbroken. 

The first close friend

I remember my first day of college orientation, when all eyes are on the freshmen. There was this little girl in a short bob hair seems to be fourteen, though she was actually starting her freshmen year. That girl was I wearing a pink with white polka dot blouse. I took a train that day when I had never ridden one before. Took the front seat where I can surely see better, because I am not a fan of wearing glasses. I remember that was when the senior explained the procedure of orientation. He was a small man wearing glasses with a neat haircut. I never thought that he would be sending me roses every Friday as the new semester started. Though I noticed when he was the speaker up front, he had his eyes on me. Not to sound overbearing, but you kind of notice when people kept on looking at you. I admit I am not a susceptible person, but the man was genuinely eyeing me. Despite his average appearance, he was cute and loyal. First week of new semester on Friday, he waited for me outside the class just to give me red rose. That day my class was on the fourth floor, where elevator is not provided. Any girl’s heart would melt as he said “Fighting for today’s class” and handed the rose. I knew he was embarrassed, shown by his smile as he walked out down stairs as soon as he handed the rose. Though that happened for three weeks, my heart never moved an inch. He was sweet and expressive towards his feeling. I am grateful such man existed and has more than feeling towards me. He deserves a better girl that would gives back his feeling, unlike me who was unable to give back what’s given to me.

College is full people from different places and background. Making friends never been easy for me. Have you ever experience being talked and judged negatively by others before they even know you? I had that experience all the time, especially I who moved school all the time as the daughter of a pilot. Being in new environment is what I am an expert at. Couple weeks since new semester started, I didn’t have that much friend. I am only close to my classmates and I came to be close with one girl who seems to have a lot in common with me. People seem to dislike me and I aware of that, and then those people became my close friends now. Took time for people to know and understand me. I am neither angry nor miserable, I understand that people must get to know me well first before liking me.

College students are full of responsibility and obligation. The future happened through college, where one must find experience as much as possible. Being in committee and organization helped me improve my skill of the major I am taking and built my responsibility. Working with people gave me the chance to make more friends. Those who hated and dislike me, believe it or not we became friends. My second and third years in college, I had the chance to be a teacher of Elementary students. I taught English to them and I discovered my interest and ability in teaching. Working with children gave me passion and I enjoyed every moment spent.

Though college may be fun with all the activities that kept me busy all year, I also experience heartbroken. Two weeks before new semester started, I was cheated by who best not be named. My first heartbroken kept me in misery for a while, even though new friends and environment distracted me. But those who care so much about me comforted and supported me. Until another year of college came, I started dating. I have met him way before, but only started to develop feeling when we both were vulnerable. Those were the years I felt complete with so many supporters supporting me. What I love about him is that I learned how to be loyal and patience. He was always away that we rarely seen each other, but I understand he had to pursue his dream. I was part of his purpose and goals in life, therefore I patiently waited for him while supporting in distance. However, from him I also learned that if things weren’t meant to be then there would be ways of separation. Though separation can either done hurtfully nor peacefully, we must accept it. I know he wasn’t the one because when he was at his crucial time, I waited patiently by his side. But when it was my crucial time, he didn’t provide effort on our separation. From him I learned, people who truly care about you are those who stay during your happiest and crucial. At my last year of college when I am experiencing failure, disappointment and pressure, he was effortless. Therefore I decided, there is no need of that person.

College years is just same as any other year, because all our life we will always have happiness, hatred, failure, disappointment and heartbroken. But those are the experience we will have to learn. My college year was full of lessons with much greater pressure every year, therefore the lessons taught us to be more mature. The next lesson we all will experience is the next step after college graduation. Congratulation class of 2014 and 2015, best of luck on your next life lesson, be strong!

There will be another post of the graduation ceremony! Stay tune for next week!